Frustrated...

I wonder how often the Lord gets frustrated with us. I mean, I know how often I get frustrated with my son and when I sit back and think about it...God must get pretty frustrated with me.
My son will do things that he knows will push my buttons. He yells at me...usually when I have yelled at him first! Whines and whines and whines...until I just want to shove a whole block of cheese down his throat. He asks me questions incessantly, about everything...mostly things I don't even really care about. And sometimes it just gets to be too much and I just want to lock myself in the closet or bathroom or my car and turn music up really loud and block it out!

As a mother, I'm trying to love my son (and daughter) like the Lord loves us all...but it is soooooo hard. I feel that being a mother is truly my calling in this time of my life, but I struggle with it. Not with my children, but with myself. I have a horrible temper that drives me into depression, and self-isolation. It makes me know want to be around my family because "they" might do something to upset me. I know, after much self-examination, that I am the one who upsets myself. I set myself up for disappointment trying to make everything perfect in my eyese.

In the midst of my emotional break down - and they happen way too often, but getting better - I hear that voice. You know the voice...comes like a whisper, at first and then is yelling at you...telling me that I am perfect! I am wonderful and beautiful and smart and a great mom and all those wonderful things that you want to hear. I remember that God created me to be this person...and mother and wife and that it's my duty to be who he wants me to be!

I think God's frustration comes from us not listening when he's talking. I think he's sad when we don't do what we should, but when he's YELLING at us and we CHOOSE to ignore Him, that must make him crazy. EXACTLY how it makes mothers and fathers crazy when their kids do the same thing!

When we listen to that little voice (or yelling one), when we take it in and make it part of our daily lives will find satisfaction in our lives, we will be fearless! We can be free to do what God has planned for us!

"What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?"Romans 8:31

Let frustration fall by the wayside by God's boundless love!