Convicted

When I think of the word convicted, I think of a court of law. You know, when someone is said to be guilty of a crime by a jury of his/her peers. Well, I was just convict, but there was no physical crime...just a crime of the Spirit. I was convicted and held responsible by not only my true brother, but by my brother in the Spirit!

I was telling my brother, Brandon, a story about the Lord speaking to a friend of mine. It was an innocent enough conversation. I made the comment that I believe that if you trust in the Lord, you will be rewarded in His way. Innocent enough, right? Well, my brother says, "Where is that in the Bible?" And I paused...and thought - I have no idea! I told him I wasn't sure...and just turned my head and wanted to conversation to be over...

I couldn't even get my focus back! I told him, I lost my way in the story. And turned away from him. I felt tears welling in my eyes...I do this when I'm upset - it's my release! I could tell that he was getting upset and getting ready to walk away. I couldn't even explain why I was crying or even upset. He kept trying to put words in my mouth...trying to HELP me explain what was going on in my own head. I couldn't even HELP myself!!

We go round and round all the time about him feeling judge by me. I explained that sometimes I feel judged by him. As I started to explain that to him, something popped in my head...I was embarrassed. I was embarrassed that I didn't know where that quote was in the bible. I felt guilty because I KNOW how important it is to read my bible, but I don't. I felt convicted!! Not by my brother, but by the Holy Father. I felt Him there saying YOU should know that!!

Now, I don't think I will ever be a bible quoter, but I do know that the only way to find wisdom is to learn. I need to find time to read my bible because I need to be filled. I need to find time to read my bible because I need to know more in order to be what I need to be for HIM.

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love." 1 John 4:18

Find that perfect love in the only One who can give it. God Bless.