Convicted

When I think of the word convicted, I think of a court of law. You know, when someone is said to be guilty of a crime by a jury of his/her peers. Well, I was just convict, but there was no physical crime...just a crime of the Spirit. I was convicted and held responsible by not only my true brother, but by my brother in the Spirit!

I was telling my brother, Brandon, a story about the Lord speaking to a friend of mine. It was an innocent enough conversation. I made the comment that I believe that if you trust in the Lord, you will be rewarded in His way. Innocent enough, right? Well, my brother says, "Where is that in the Bible?" And I paused...and thought - I have no idea! I told him I wasn't sure...and just turned my head and wanted to conversation to be over...

I couldn't even get my focus back! I told him, I lost my way in the story. And turned away from him. I felt tears welling in my eyes...I do this when I'm upset - it's my release! I could tell that he was getting upset and getting ready to walk away. I couldn't even explain why I was crying or even upset. He kept trying to put words in my mouth...trying to HELP me explain what was going on in my own head. I couldn't even HELP myself!!

We go round and round all the time about him feeling judge by me. I explained that sometimes I feel judged by him. As I started to explain that to him, something popped in my head...I was embarrassed. I was embarrassed that I didn't know where that quote was in the bible. I felt guilty because I KNOW how important it is to read my bible, but I don't. I felt convicted!! Not by my brother, but by the Holy Father. I felt Him there saying YOU should know that!!

Now, I don't think I will ever be a bible quoter, but I do know that the only way to find wisdom is to learn. I need to find time to read my bible because I need to be filled. I need to find time to read my bible because I need to know more in order to be what I need to be for HIM.

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love." 1 John 4:18

Find that perfect love in the only One who can give it. God Bless.

Finding your match

My brother stopped by today. He's really struggling with finding his match - his mate, his wife. He's been looking for what seems like forever. I guess when you are surrounded by married couples, you start to think about what you want in life and you strive to be like those around you, especially when everyone seems to be SO happy!

I really do find encouagement in him. He reminds me to never take my husband for granted. I know that there are many out there struggling with the same conflict that he is and I don't ever want to be in that predicament again. I was there nearly 6 years ago...

I was a workaholic and was so lonely it hurt. I prayed everyday for God to grant me a partner that I could share my life with. I was on every FREE personal site you could think of - with the exception of all those gross site (you know what I mean). I felt God urging me to take a chance...which is just terrifying!! I put my trust in Him...and when this guy asked me out - well to hang out, I said yes. I didn't end up with that guy, but I did end up with his friend. If I hadn't put my trust in God and just taken a chance, I wouldn't be happily married.

I encourage those of you who are struggling in anything right now to give up your burden to God. Take a chance on life...the worse that can happen is falling into God's arms. Because even when we don't get exactly what we want, when we want it, we must remain faithful. " For the LORD loves the just and will not forsake his faithful ones. They will be protected forever but the offspring of the wicked will be cut off." Psalm 37:28

Be faithful in the Lord.

The Beginning...

Ok...so I have never in my life done this "blog" thing. I'm not even sure if anyone but me will ever read this, but I figure I can use it as my own personal journal. If you know me personally, you know that I'm pretty much an open book. Some might say I'm the epitome of "TMI" (too much information). I share my life with others, so that I may be a blessing to them...and hey, if someone can learn from my life, then there is God!

God is ever present in my life - He is here as I'm writing (typing) these words on this page. I'm trying to allow God to guide me in the words I say and the verbs I use - my actions. It's a constant struggle for me...I yell, I scream, I cuss, I have given the finger (not lately), I have punched my brother (again...not lately) - in short, I have sinned. But the Lord does work miracles and he is changing me - slowly, whether I like it or not. He's here!!

I hope that you get a kick out of my stories...they will mostly have a humorous undertone to them, because, well, that's me! I always have a story to share!

Enjoy the Boundless Love of God, that Graces my life!